Finding new hope

Hello my friends !!
I hope you will sit a spell and hang on tight...this could be a long entry. I hope you hang on til the end.
Where do I start? Ok... well I will start with saying I am on an amazing journey. As I posted before I am taking art classes and having a blast. I love when I am in my little studio and have paint,ink,gel medium,watercolors all over me ! lol ! Ok.. well my hands at least. I am at peace when I create my art pieces,work in my art journal and on canvases. On April 5th I began another amazing journey through the Brave Girls Club I belong to. The course is called Soul Restoration. It combines art with a whole lot of soul searching . Just what I needed. I won't go into a lot of details about the course,I'm not supposed to. But I can share this with you . I am finding Hope,peace,joy and understanding. I had a heart to heart with my BFF this weekend and she made me realize that I have been stuck in my grief. Just going through the motions,believing so many lies such as I'm alone and will be for the rest of my life. Or... I'm not good enough because...!! You get the picture. Through just the first week of Soul Restoration I have had a huge breakthrough. I realized that at the center of my issues was this one statement... I am ALONE! It is one of my biggest fears. By clothing myself with that statement it has made me shut people out of my life. Not like myself. Feel so unloved and unlovable. Anxious,angry,depressed.. the list goes on and on. By facing the facts and the fears I am realizing... I am alone by choice ! I have pushed almost everyone but my children away. I have not been going to church since December. Ok I have the last 2 weeks... but ! I have been lost in my grief. Through art journaling,painting and writing I am finding new hope,peace,joy,laughter and so much more. I will share a picture of my art journal entry today.

I don't like the scan of this.. but my Digital camera is having issues ! Anyway.... In the heart on the right I am placing words that I am using to fill the darkness in my heart. Words like So Loved,Joy,Laughter,Peace,Beautiful,Happiness,Creative,Inspired and at the center...God !! I am on my way... I am walking through the grief of losing my dear Marvin. I will survive ! I will keep going until God takes me home !!

Ok... on the lighter side here is a silly picture ,also from my art journal. This is of a whimsical girl,dressed as a bunny with her child close behind. Traveling up the yellow brick road headed home. Lol !! What can I say? lol !!

And last but not least a small 6x6 canvas I did which will be for sale when I get my Etsy shop set up ! lol !! Again the scan does not do it justice...but until the camera and I get on speaking terms again.. here it is...

It's title is Love Deeply.
Well my friends this entry did not end up as long as I thought it would. But I hope you get something from it. Please leave your comments.. you know I love hearing from you !!
Til next time....
hugs...